I’m not going to eat for four days.
For the second year in a row, I am taking a personal retreat at the St. John’s Abbey Guesthouse. It’s nice to have a few days of quiet to relax, read, and reflect. Plus, CSB/SJU is a special place for me. My parents (and some of my aunts and uncles) were married there. I was baptized there. We lived in a dorm at St. Ben’s when I was a baby, and I bounced in the doorway in my Johnny Jump Up. I remember sitting on Sister Dennis‘s lap at a kick wheel in the pottery when I was 5 or 6 while she showed me how to throw a pot. And I always love sitting and talking with Father Rene. St. John’s feels a bit like home, even though I didn’t go to school there.
I’m not religious in the least, by the way, but I’m glad other people are so that places like St. John’s exist.
Anyway, this year I’m going to fast during my retreat.
I’m not trying to cleanse my body or find enlightenment or any other new-age bullshit. And I’m definitely not trying to identify with the Syrian refugees. I will be staying in a comfortable room at a place I love, with the option to eat any time I want to. I just want to know what it feels like not to eat for several days. I guess I’m just curious. Plus, it will be a challenge, and I like challenges.
My plan is to start fasting this Sunday and break my fast next Thursday morning. I will drink water, tea, and black coffee, but that’s it. No calories. I will try to lower my calorie intake this week so my body gets used to making do with less, but there is a lot of leftover Halloween candy in my house and I have the willpower of an infant when it comes to chocolate.
I hope I’m up for walking and reading, since St. John’s is an excellent place for both of those activities. I don’t plan to do much else except post updates if I have something more interesting to say than SO HUNGRY!!!
Stay tuned if you want to know what comes after hangry.